answer is the story in the book that i never knew which is when he wrote about going to the war in indonesia i was afraid to go in there, there was a young woman nurse peace corps volunteer and she asked me to go into the war and i was afraid sargent shriver is supposed to be this great guy and he was afraid and he was human. they have to negotiate a deal but she was touching other human beings that were struggling, people that were sick, and when he was 45 or 46i think that she would have loved to have been that nurse in that room touching the people affected by leprosy, and to have that experience and show what the piece is about where human beings are interacting with each other, not some peace in the theory of diplomats which is often times elusive. this is real human peace, and interactions of that's why he always said i wish i were you because i have the opportunity to deal with that. he was very happy in his own life, but he was excited and wished that he could have other opportunities. to experience those things and help creating those situations. >> that was a mean question to ask m